Being Still

My friend MomRN wrote such a beautiful heart filled post, I did not want to take up her comment section so I will respond here. I have been learning my ways are not always his ways, and no matter how much pleading, pouting, etc.. I do, it does not change Him or the situation. You would think I would learn that, get off the floor and move on. But you see I am kind of thick skulled. Know what I did on New Year’s Eve? I went to bed at 10 PM and said, “good riddance 2007.” I did, but as I laid in bed I counted all my blessings one by one…Oh I am so blessed. And I have so much to learn. MomRn said and I second this:

God also remained. He never left me in those moments. In fact, it was in those moments I learned I do not always need words. In those moments He would just sit with me, His loving and affirming embrace engulfing me. He did not condemn. He did not grow impatient. He did not breath deep sighs ready to move on. He sat. He was quiet. He waited. He gave me time.

I could not have said it any better. I have been looking for a study or a lesson or something I need to be doing…the Lord has led me to be still. I don’t “be still.” You see if I am still then I concentrate (too much) on the things that are not going my way, or things that are not panning out, or what He is or is not doing. Isn’t that why so many of us have such insane busy lives, we don’t want to stop and think. But he is calling me to be still right now and He is just sitting with me.

This Sunday we had a visiting pastor and he gave a very good “New Year” sermon. There was nothing profound, but there is one simple (and if you ask me stupid analogy) that just hit me in my heart and had me sobbing.

There is this Co-worker that goes away during the weekends to go sailing. Well when the co-worker came back to work on Monday a friend asked him how the sailing went, where did you go, what did you see? The Co-worker said, “Oh we just went on the boat, we did not go anywhere.”

So many times as Christians we are like that family, we get all our gear ready, we have all the right stuff and then we get on the boat. But we never untie it from the dock. We never go anywhere.

How many times do we as Christians have everything we need, and even go to where we need to be….but we never sail out into the deep blue to explore and see what is out there? I have no idea where God is going to lead in 2008, and through my tears this morning I said, “I don’t feel like I have anything to offer, I fail at everything, but whatever it is IT IS ALL YOURS.”

But for right now, for tomorrow “He sitting. He is quiet. He is waiting. He is giving me time” to learn what I need to learn, and right I am just sitting in his comfort not know what tomorrow will bring.